As summer break wraps up and we begin shifting back into school mode, I find myself, once again, feeling inadequate.
Today the boys and I rode our bikes down to Colin’s school to check out the classroom assignments. The lists weren’t posted yet when we got there, so we hung around a bit. The kids played in the playground, and I struck up some conversations with the moms of Colin’s classmates from last year.
Colin was the one kid in Advanced Kindergarten last year who didn’t actually test into the class. (As a side note, the fact that he did just fine in this class despite not having confirmed his aptitude, is a bit of a testament to the value — or lack thereof — of such testing at this young age. Either that, or my son is an unconfirmed genius.) I’d like to say that I chose not to have Colin tested, but as it played out, I actually had no idea that the testing was happening, until it was too late.
I did, however, have friends who opted to test their children, and some reported, after having attended the informational meetings with other parents of Advanced Kindergarten hopefuls, that they didn’t actually want their kids to be in a class with the kids of those kind of parents. Stepfordton has a very highly educated parental base to begin with, parents who waited to start a family until they were at a place financially, professionally, personally, where they could devote a lot of attention to the business of raising exceptional children. So that’s where we start out. You dial it up a notch when you’re dealing with the parents of Advanced Kindergartners.
So maybe it’s no surprise that many of the parents of Colin’s classmates had their children tested earlier this year to see if they could get into the gifted charter school about 8 miles away. Seven of his classmates — out of a class of twenty — were accepted. Quite a feat.
Here’s where my own sense of inadequacy kicks in. Once again, I didn’t know that the testing would happen. Even if I had known, I’m about 98% sure I wouldn’t have dragged Colin downtown to get tested anyway, but I do feel like Slacker Mom Of The Year every time I hear about some educational opportunity for my kids that they miss out on due entirely to my own ineptitude.
One of the moms I spoke with today had not only had her child tested for the gifted charter school, but then had followed up with an academic assessment by a third party to better understand her child’s particular style of learning and processing new information when he didn’t score high enough on the initial test. And she hired a tutor to help keep up with his academic process over the summer.
I, on the other hand, had signed Colin up for exactly one extra-curricular activity this summer — going to Camp Invention, where, as near as I can tell, he spent a week disassembling an old DVD player we had sitting around the garage, and then reassembling back into a new “invention” for chopping up food. We spent a lot of time at the swimming pool, saw some fun movies, went on a couple hikes, and even read some books together, but other than that, pffft – nada.
After we found Colin’s first grade assignment — he’s in Ms. Estrada’s class — we rode back home and the boys got to playing out front with the kids from next door. I didn’t realize that I was feeling all that mopey about all this until the mom next door stepped out to track down her kids and asked how I was doing…
I mentioned that I had just gotten back from checking out the class lists at school, and that I need to ramp back up to get ready for all that. And she seemed to know kind of what I meant. “Yeah, it can all be kind of annoying.” With that I let loose, rambling on about my worries that I was failing my kids somehow.
She stopped me and said, “You are the perfect parent for your kids. You were selected precisely because you are the right mom for your two boys, you know what’s right for them, and the path that unfolds for you all is the exact one that you all were meant to take.” Now I know that my neighbor is a big Jesus fan, and that a lot of this was probably coming from a bit of a churchy place, but it all resonated with me in a big way.
The weird thing is that the first thing that popped into my mind as I was listening to her was Kung Fu Panda. I’ve been thinking more about the message of that movie lately. (Partly because I just saw it for the second time last week.) Here they are: (1) there are no accidents, and (2) there is no secret.
So the path that those other parents take with their kids, is the exact right path for them. And this one, the one that we’re on with our kids, that’s the right one for us. Our boys will be fine.
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But in the meanwhile, I ran across this article, and can’t resist providing a link to it here, even if it is a bit old. I’m a Beta Mom, through and through.
bravo to your neighbor! And truth be told, i’m quite jealous of you having that kind of time with your kids. That’s what I had planned for the summer, and it was just WAY too crazy for me to do that…
Yeah, your boys will be great. And so will my girls.
Andi the Beta Mom